'live and let go'

it's strange how you say you're too old to let friends go considering how you treat them.

or,

to be fair, me.

thank you J for pointing out what's going on.

in your words, 'i can't believe how things have changed so drastically within 10 months'

maybe you should be asking how you could change so drastically. because 10 months ago, you'd have more insight in what's going on in your life, you'd have time to listen to your friend's problems, you'd invite them over for dinner even when you have nothing to say, you'd get coffees with them not because you need to rant, but you just want to spend time with them. and because 10 months ago, you had more self-respect, and your world consisted of other things apart from yourself. 10 months ago you were interesting and beautiful.

now i see none of that. no wonder you're so 'insecure' and always unhappy.

i have no grudges. i only wish you the best of whatever you choose to make with your life.

:)